So it's been a while since I last posted on my blog. The same thing happened with my old blog as I took a lot of time to think of something and post, which eventually led to dropping of the whole idea of blogging. Why does this happen? By using this post I'd like to share few behind the scenes and mindset of a person who does something they like and eventually give up on it.
First things first..
Initially, like every aspiring blogger/youtuber, I wanted to make content like everyone and gain audience overnight and become a phenomenon. But the truth is that's not how things work in reality. First of all, understand the difference between fantasy and reality.
I've been there, I was living in the world of fantasy for a long time and it took me a lot of time and incidents to finally realize I'm not living in the reality. I've suffered a lot because of this, made a lot of people suffer, lost a lot of people in my life in a very short span of time, everything was so sudden that I couldn't accept the reality.
The reason why I mentioned this is mainly to make people understand the fact that reality don't work the same way as we think. That's what makes life worth living. Just like Eminem said - "A normal life is boring". If life's predictable, it's not worth living. The sanme happens to the content creation world.
You don't become PewDiePie overnight. He worked hard to reach where he is now, since 2010. So you definitely cannot expect overnight reach throughout the world and get recognized. It can be frustrating, heartbreaking, and makes you want to give up. But how far you push these boundaries away and you keep moving forward is what defines you. I started my YouTube channel like six months ago now. I've uploaded nearly 90 videos as of now. But I average 8-10 views per video and have 23 subs only(someone recently unsubbed recently FeelsBadMan). And this blog, I get 8 views per post if I skip the number of times I read my own shit.
Things can be really frustrating but you need to keep doing what you like, at the same time, it should make you happy. If you feel so offended when you don't think you're not getting the attention you deserve, stop right there and try focusing on something else. This is because, in the end if it doesn't give you the peace and make you happy, it is nothing. All for naught!
I think this is more than enough to talk about the reason why people drop it halfway. As far as my case is concerned, I never worry about the stats like most people. I initially started to use YouTube as my cloud storage to store my good gameplays. I never expect it to help me earn money like most people. I did it so that wherever I go, I can easily take my mobile, open the YouTube app and show my gameplays to any people. In case of blogging, I wanted to use it as my e-diary. I've never shared anyone my channel link or my blog link. Though I've mentioned it in all my videos' description, my Instagram bio, my discord server, etc., I've never made any announcement about it to others. The main reason is that if you share it to your friends, they'll watch it only because you asked them to and they're your friend. But if people find out about these on their own, if they like it, they'll definitely comeback to watch on their own. So I never publicize these things or promote them in any way. So if I personally tell you about this things, consider yourself lucky.
The first and foremost reason why I was inactive for almost a month is because I was not feeling it. I didn't know what to talk about or what to share with the readers. I can't just show up, type some nonsense and post it. Of course that's what I'm doing now but still, this is at least something that takes more time and effort. So I decided to take a break to get myself together and go for it once I feel good. Secondly, I bought a new mechanical keyboard. So this is my first mechanical keyboard since old days video game keyboard and I was so excited to own one. Every gamer's dream is to play with a mechanical keyboard. Mine finally happened today. FeelsGoodMan. So I decided to type and oddly satisfy myself with the click sound that the keyboard makes. I'll attach at the end the clip of the sound. Enjoy the ASMR.
So these are the two main reasons why I posted this today. also do not worry I'm not going to stop doing this blogging or YouTube thing. I'll take time, I'll take breaks, but I'm here to stay.
See you guys in the next post.
Peace.
The keyboard sound video.
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