The time gaming changed my life

Intro..

Gaming was one of the best hobby a person can find. You spend your time sitting in front of a screen, holding a joystick or a keyboard/mouse, taking up the role in a game and play it to your heart's consent since that's the only time you can do cool stuffs. It has also proved to increase brain activity and improve your mental abilities, as well as providing physical benefits.

Although gaming too much can cause negative impacts, I'll talk about the positive ways i got benefitted by gaming. My gaming history begins way back since I was in my kindergarten. I was introduced to gaming by my elder brother. He played some action-adventure game and when he's not around, I used to sneak in and play the games. I don't remember the first game I played but it featured a long white haired warrior(if you know the name, comment it down below). 

The First Console

I used to wait for my summer holidays so that my mom will let me access my brother's old nintendo console. I played some of the best, old arcade games we all grew up playing. Some of those games include Road fighter, Mario, Duck Hunt, Adventure Island, Popeye, Yie-Ar kung fu, Tetris, Pooyan, Front line, Donkey kong jr, pac man, Circus Charlie, Tag team wrestling, Jackal, Ice Climber, F1 race, City connections, Kung Fu, and so many NES games. I still own the console and the chips that the game need to play. I also own the old type joysticks and the gun used to play the duck hunt. I haven't plugged them and played in years since I'm scared of damaging it permanently due to overload or something. The last time I played on them was on 2011, almost 10 years ago and tryst me, they worked. The console alone is older than me(bought on 1995).

Old Console with Joy Sticks, IR Gun and game chips

When I got to use my brother's pc, I played other pc games like spiderman 2, Grand theft auto, and when I say gta, I mean all the parts included. Surprisingly, my brother played Counter-strike source and global offensive but I never played them. I played counter-strike global offensive only during later half of 2020s, like a year ago. Feelsbadman.

No more PC

Then came a time I could no longer play on pc since it was old and I ruined the pc by entering the booting menu and just clicked random stuffs imagining myself like my brother. He used to do stuffs like that since he's a software engineer and I have this bad habit of imitating something I see to learn and know about it. That is how I learnt to use techs from a very young age, It was all the perks of having an elder brother. Also he never complains about me doing stuffs with the things in his arsenal. And that's how I learnt a lot of things(not just tech lmao).

My brother bought an Xbox One for him by 2016, which he obviously left home for me after using it for like six months since he had to travel alot during that time and he couldn't take it everywhere he went. So whenever my brother buys some new techs, everyone in my family thinks it's for me. That's how I got my dslr, sprocket, vector pet, and so on.

Xbox One with Controllers

So I did not own a pc during my high school days. I had to wait for quiet a long time to play on the Xbox since my parents didn't want me to play during that time. But still, I played Watch Dogs, Battlefield, Tom Clancy's Division 2, Forza horizon 4. Every game was owned by my brother and I peeked when he typed his Xbox account password and i played on his account. Initially I thought he'll scold me but he never spoke about it and I thought he didn't mind me playing with his account.

Then I left home and stayed in a different city for my college. And I played mobile games back then. Player Unknown's Battle ground: Mobile was a big deal that time and I played that game. And when we invested in the game for in-game cosmetics(skins), the Indian Government banned it, talk about worst luck. I never disclosed it but I spend a couple of grands just on that game alone. When I heard about the ban, I felt like a clown. The biggest disappointment was for the fact that it was on the very same day, early morning, I paid in-game for a subscription plan that is done to buy in-game items. On that day, me and my gaming gang decided to purchase gaming laptops and become pc gamers.

The Unexpected Instant Transition

Soon after, all of us owned a pc(laptop) and we wanted to play pc games. But what game? I installed every single store like steam, epic games, battle.net, gog, origin, ubisoft connect, but never installed a game. We installed valorant and played a couple of games and I obviously sucked and I decided to quit it. Me and the gang played Rocket League and they also dropped valorant. I played counter strike global offensive and I think I played for like 35-40 hours before quitting it too. But that 40 hours helped me play valorant quiet better. So technically, Valorant is my first fps shooter game, but csgo helped me play it better.

My current setup

In the mean time, I played watch dogs 2, gta v, The witcher, dishonored and other single player games. It was during this time I learnt about discord and started using it. Since then, It's the only platform I'll be active and respond to texts. We even played on in-game tournament in Rocket League and won skins and stuffs. But there came a time when we understood we can't keep on playing this one game and we decided to switch back to valorant. Since then, valorant is the only game we played.

The Restriction I had

I never want to restrict myself from playing just one game. For me, it's like I want to play a lot of games, whether I'm good at it or not, that's secondary, but I want to play more. Be it single player or multi player, I want to play different games. We tried Team Fortress 2, Cry of Fear, Deceit, but nothing worked out like valorant. For me, that was kinda disappointing because playing just a particular game will make me hate that game. And Valorant is known around for toxic teammates, malding, tilting, it tests your patience, mental peace and all stuffs. Currently, I'm on a break from Valorant and all the valorant contents you see on my YouTube channel are old gameplays. I'll discuss about it in a separate post.

Six months before i owned my laptop, I was a completely different person. I was going through a rough phase and I was depressed, lost, I was suffering, I was crying, I lost my sleep, life was miserable. Even six months after I owned my laptop, I was still the same. And at one point, I couldn't feel anything. I did not feel pain, I did not feel depressed, as a matter of fact, I felt a state of happiness when I was playing. And that became a triggering event and since then, Gaming has become more than just a part of recreation to me.

Not to brag but..

I have 600 hours under my name in just valorant alone(You can check it with tracker.gg). I played The Witcher 3: The Wild Hunt for 160 hours and these hours are not just numbers, these are the time that would've turned me into a different person, and would've even cost me my life if it wasn't for these thing called games. Just like how I tell people Eminem saved my life once, gaming did it again. And that gives me more than enough reason to game and not worry about other things because I now got no time to complete my missions, so I don't find time to worry about other things. 

Right now, I don't worry about anything that's happening to me, around me, because I got to worry about losing my rr and not climbing my rank, struggling hard to beat a boss but getting fucked by a side character at the last moment, worry about why my tweets are not being a banger, worry about this blog getting more views lmaooo. The ease of pain and the mindset to look at things beyond what you see that I get from gaming is what makes me do it more. And that's about the time and why gaming changed my life.

See you guys in the next post. Peace.